Clairest Of Them.....All (thoughts of a lighthouse )

Its Christmas afternoon of 2004. I'm cozying up in my brother's room contemplating on the niceties of my life. The 3rd floor of this building makes it special enough for me to gaze the sky and appreciate the calmness of the season. Right at the heart of Manila near the business district of Makati, it's rare to experience such slowness in a normal day. A rowdy traffic and noisy street is already a part of my daily life. But not today, because it's a holiday. Six hours ago, I just came from my work in a call center. I've been working graveyard shifts for three years and holidays are no exception. For some reason, this Christmas is special in such a way that all my siblings are complete and together with my mom we celebrated it as a family after my dad passed away three years ago. This morning, on the eve of Christmas, we call it “Noche Buena” (dawn feast) it’s very unusual that my mom didn’t prepare the food. We had it ordered and catered. We just treated ourselve

What a beautiful year it was! And before the year ends, there is Christmas! I attended the Christmas party at work and I enjoyed it because I was with my closest friends from work namely: Ann Pingol, Grace, Carol and Evic. Of course Batch 2(Yeng, meong, Carlo, Isay, Amie, Joe and Ann) is almost complete except for Carmina and Obe. It has been a great year primarily because i have learned how to be a woman after God's own heart. "The fact that I am a woman doesn't make me a different kind of a Christian. The fact that I am a Christian, makes me a different kind of a woman"-Elizabeth Elliot. Being woman doesn't mean that I use my natural gift of being opinionated and dominate guys. I used to think that being a strong woman means winning arguments and proving myself right. I was proven wrong while reading Wild at Heart (by: John Eldredge) he explained that it is in the woman's femininity and use of charm that men listen to her because that

While reading Boy Meets Girl by Joshua Harris, there was an excerpt of the book Love that Lasts by Gary and Betsy Ricucci where they shared ten tips for communication that could help you guide in the area of conflict in relationships. @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ 1. Learn to express your feelings and frustrations honestly, but without accusing or attacking the other person (Proverbs 11:9). @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ 2. Choose words, expressions, and a tone of voice that are kind and gentle. Dont use speech that could easily offend or spark an argument (Proverbs 15:1). @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ 3. Don't exaggerate, distort, or stretch the truth. Avoid extreme words like never and always (Ephesians 4:25). @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ 4. Give actual and specific examples. If necessary, make notes before you communicate. Stay away from generalities. @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ 5. Commit yourself to seeking solutions instead of airing your grievances. Getting even isn't the goal- you want to get things resolved (Romans 12:17-21). @@@@@@@

I've been so dry the past few weeks. It all started with a vision given by my friend Weng with a statement that at the point of my desperation, God will provide. She saw Isaac being offered and all at once, there was a ram at the thickets and it was made the replacement for Isaac. No bloodshed, they went back home happy. Now it's over and I am walking secure, cradled by the arms of my loving Father. I have proven that "God is all yo need, when He's all you've got". and Jon Piper's words became reality to me, "God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him. I can't explain my excitement in the days ahead because he is doing a new thing. I remember Isaiah 43 and I am encouraged whenever God is doing something new because he reminds me that his work is something supernatural, like springs in the desert. And only a discerning spirit will I be able to run along with it. @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ Isaiah 43 1 But now, t

@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ "Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you: Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires" was spoken thrice in the whole book of Solomon in Song of Songs ( Song of Solomon 2:7 ; Song of Solomon 3:5 ; Song of Solomon 8:4 ) @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ . Females were created by God to be pursued by man and not the one to pursue; to be a support and not to lead the relationship. I am so turned off by women who cannot control themselves from pursuing men. They orchestrate time, events and circumstances so as to make themselves available for the guy. Why do I disagree? Men are created to live an adventure and be the prince charming to rescue a beauty...the night and shining armor. I have settled in my mind even when i was young to never ever do the pursuit because I am precious in the eyes of my creator and only then will I be able to test the sincerity and purity of a man's intention. @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ I was talking to my one good friend

(1-10) Never Complain About What You Permit - Individual sin create corporate curses (Achan’s sins, Korah) - Don’t give an instruction twice- Peter Daniels (Billionaire) The Problem That Infuriarates You the Most Is the Problem That God Has Assigned You To Solve - Anger is a clue to where you belong (i.e Benny Hinn hates sickness) - Anger is the birthplace of solutions or the catalyst of change Those Who Unlock Your Compassion Are Those To Whom You Have Been Assigned What You Are Willing To Walk way From Determines What God Will Bring To You - Change is discomforting but the price of your future is your present The Secret Of Your Future Is Hidden in Your daily routine - Successful men do it daily while unsuccessful men do it occasionally - When you choose an obsession, you create a habit Your Rewards In Life Are determined By The Problems You Solve For Others - The problems nearest you is your door to promotion (joseph solved the famine) When You Want Something You

Happy, happy, happy talk...talk about the things you like to do....(South Pacific). We all love to talk but we all need to be careful because we will have to give an account on the day of judgment for every careless word we have spoken(Mt12:36). The tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. (James 3:5) 1 Peter 2 1Therefore, rid yourselves of all malice and all deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and slander of every kind Yeah, even in Christian circles, we need to be careful of this evil-----Slander. I have been entangled by this as an unwilling prey this past week I was perceived by that one person that I am praying for Him (no offense to the brother because we already cleared the issue and have patched up our differences) These items circling around Christian circles specially around single people is not only unpleasant to God but it gives very little room for possible pure friendships because it always threatens

Cammy is one of those few people I know that will instantly make you feel comfortable. She speaks with innocence and charm that cannot be denied. Whenever she holds my hand, I always feel that I am the greatest because that is her gift, she has a healing touch. I felt like a part of me was torn away when she left for UK for further studies. She’s my confidante, my accountability partner. I miss her but I am assured that she’s growing up to be the kind of woman God wants her to be. This reminds me of the passage in the scripture when Jesus was saying goodbye to his disciples and I dedicate this blog page for her. John 14: 15-31 "If you love me, you will obey what I command. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever--the Spirit of truth. Ø What’s good about this Cam is that, “you are not alone”. The Holy Spirit is with you. Another here means another “of the same kind”. Jesus knows the feelings of his disciples when he was tr

There was a man who had four sons. He wanted his sons to learn not to judge things too quickly. So he sent them each on a quest, in turn, togo and look at a pear tree that was a great distance away. The firstson went in the winter, the second in the spring, the third in summer,and the youngest son in the fall. When they had all gone and come back, he called them together todescribe what they had seen. The first son said that the tree was ugly,bent, and twisted. The second son said no--it was covered with greenbuds and full of promise. The third son disagreed, he said it was laden with blossoms that smelled so sweet and looked so beautiful, it was the most graceful thing he had ever seen. The last son disagreedwith all of them; he said it was ripe and drooping with fruit, full oflife and fulfillment. The man then explained to his sons that they were all right,because they had each seen but ONLY one season in the tree's life. He told themthat you cannot judge

The will of God will never take you, Where the grace of God cannot keep you. Where the arms of God cannot support you, Where the riches of God cannot supply your needs, Where the power of God cannot endow you. The will of God will never take you, Where the spirit of God cannot work through you, Where the wisdom of God cannot teach you, Where the army of God cannot protect you, Where the hands of God cannot mold you. The will of God will never take you, Where the love of God cannot enfold you, Where the mercies of God cannot sustain you, Where the peace of God cannot calm your fears, Where the authority of God cannot overrule for you. The will of God will never take you, Where the comfort of God cannot dry your tears, Where the Word of God cannot feed you, Where the miracles of God cannot be done for you, Where the omnipresence of God cannot find you thank you set apart princess......... the week that was.............. Philippine Invasion reunited with old friends, new aquaintances shoc

. Lately I am faced with different issues of people almost picking the second best. It's true that the enemy of BEST is GOOD. Too many times we would think that something is good enough for us but God has planned what is best and that is what I want. Far be it from me to choose for myself again nor orchestrate events on my own. I want God to pen my lovestory. "The right person at the right time is the wrong person just as much as the wrong person at the right time is the wrong person". Here's a famous letter about waiting............ . Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone, to have a deep relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But to His child, the Lord says: "No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled, and content with being loved by Me; with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me to have an intensely personal relationship with Me alone, discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found

You are my lovesong You are The One When I am filed with all kinds of blessing You're the fulfillment One thing I need and when I gaze upon you I find that I am most satisfied You lavish me with your bounty right here beside you I will abide

---------- Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up! Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken. ---------- Just a few hours earlier, we finished our worship practice at VLI, Fort. Don, Cher, Rose, James, JR, Carmina and I had our usual after practice dinner. As James commented, "this night is a different night.... from all the other nights." That made me look back and appreciate that night. James made several facial expressions, ala Jim Carrey (mad, dumb etc...) while Don records the video in his phone and the rest of us amazingly laughs at the background. After the exchange of jokes and "fellowship" we went out of the fast food and for some reason me and Cher just st

After teaching my cell in Starbucks 6750, monday night, I met with my triplets: Carmina and Don. It all started when Carmina and I became twins (inseperable), having the same job, singing in the same music team, ending in the same cell group. We are practically together that when i'm not around, people would ask Carmina where I am and vise versa. Then came Carmina and Don from Singapore, we became quadruplets after music team practices we see to it that we dine out or have some coffee. Since Marvs left us for Boston studies, Don naturally became our triplet. So much for the historical triplet background. We decided to eat at Wendy's Glorietta 4 and appreciate the goodness of God. Don laid down my week diet and exercise plan ( I'm still planning to loose 20 lbs). It was a a special time for the three of us because we've grown in the grace of God and we evaluated how God has been good to us individually and in our circle of friendship (since now it expands to our music te

The greatest worship I ever had was this sunday. As in the Holy Spirit just came down (at least as far as I think he did). It was smashing. Ptr Ferdie asked our team to sing twice, after he preached and even before we were dismissed. Man oh man, i had a doze of the Holy Ghost and was so filled. About 4 am that morning while I was praying, I already got a word from God that I would receive a miracle that day so I was expectant and the first was the worship time. Next is that Weng, the worship leader saw a vision of Abraham about to offer Isaac yet God prevented him and gave him ram stuck in the thickets instead. She gave that vision to me with an interpretation that "Claire at the point of desperation, God will provide..whatever you are asking Him." And i remembered that yes, i have given up some Isaacs in mylife that week and a couple of months back. Well that's a big statement because that morning I started asking somethings I have never asked ebfore and last week the wo

When Ptr. Ferdie spoke last Sunday about the 4 Attributes of God, it suddenly made sense, whatever I'm going through and expect to receive these coming days. God Is Powerful, God is Sovereign, God is Faithful and God is Forever. Meaning I may be waiting on his answers and sometimes I may not see them the way I want them to be because I need to wait. And waiting is just temporary. I should not fear because it will turn out for my good because I love God! --------------- Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose --------------- What a great Sunday! One of those rare times when you get to be with the people you love and freely enjoy God. After going to my friend's dedication party, my friends: Rose, Don, Carmina, and Cher waited for me in Robinson's Place while I attended the party with my old church mates. During the party I realized that I am really called to be where I am right now.

It's a beginning of a new season marked with new promises, new hopes, new dreams. Just two months back I can remember well how I'm in the middle of a shaking. I can't even remember what the shaking was all about. -------------------------------- Hebrews 12:27 The words "once more" indicate the removing of what can be shaken--that is, created things--so that what cannot be shaken may remain. -------------------------------- I am amazed that God has blessed me indeed with a lot of things. I am blessed with the strength of a deer that can stand great endurance tests (due to the demands of a call enter jobs). I am blessed with a cell leader Rose that has lavishly showed me love and how to be a woman. I am blessed with Carmina's friendship and loyalty. I am blessed with the love of my mom that I can go home and jump on her bedside and just kiss and hug her after a very tiring day. I am blessed with wonderful mighty brothers who are all man of stature in their own

One month back I suddenly felt the need to interceed. I started praying in a language not known to man but that of the angels. I had this anxious feeling as when something wrong is about to take place. I started praying like there's no tommorow, eyeballs swelled up in tears. Just when I was about to ask God is there anything wrong Lord? why is there so much burden in my heart? He replied.....Read Genesis 2:8. Like an obedient child, clueless but more excited, i opened that passage in my bible which read.......... Genesis 2:8 Now the LORD God had planted a garden in the east, in Eden; and there he put the man he had formed. I was indeed dumbfounded as to what could be the meaning of this because I stopped praying for one person which has captured my fancy for one year and it has been a month since I last prayed for him. I am fully sold out to the fact that God is totally in control of my future spouse and that I don't want to ask for a pearl anymore, no matter how captivating it

Many times I have been referred to as a lighthouse. Four years back, I met an Australian pastor named Jake Bethlem. He called me from a crowd and told me that he can see that I am full of light (just dunno if he literally saw light rays shining on me). He also prophesied that I am a lighthouse and all my past and my future will be the materials God will use to build me into a lighthouse. During that time, I have been into a relationship and am very much wounded. True enough my name suggests light. Claire means "clarus" in Latin meaning bright, clear famous. I love to explain things and become a light to my friends. And so I know since then that my life is going to be a series of enlightenment for others. Two weeks ago, one of my friends Lance gave me a word about the Lighthouse. He saw a vision of a majestic tower, a lighthouse with four beams of light pointing to the north, south, east and west. The lighthouse I so huge and white like an ivory. It has vines clinging all aro