Clairest Of Them.....All (thoughts of a lighthouse )

reposting from last year...... CAPTIVATING is a book by John and Stasi Eldredge. John Eldredge wrote a book for men entitled "Wild at Heart" and the book is so powerful, so much that it is through this book that I learned how to be a woman. I'm hooked up with the woman's counterpart of the book which is equally engrossing and powerful and it is this book called Captivating. One time as I share my own story about how I despised Beauty in the past (I used to feel and think that I am ugly and I don’t want to smile otherwise I am attracting men, later I discovered that God loves and enjoys me the way I am, I am now more comfortable in being the woman God created me to be, I am holy and my beauty comes from my continuous abiding in him, I love being a woman now) and how God redeemed me on my concept of beauty someone suggested that I read this book Captivating because my story and my struggles are the very subject tackled in the book. I was intrigued at first to find out

It has been 3 years since I had a relationship and I am not ashamed to write my struggles as a single woman because I know I am hidden in God and I am not doing anything to be ashamed of in the first place. Moreover, my own struggles serve as a lesson, an inspiration to many in how they should live their lives in the hopes of waiting for the right man. God must have enjoyed me so much that for three years now, I never had any relationships, flings although I must admit I was attracted to a lot of good men. It was around 12 months or a year to be exact since God has shut down my heart so I can have undivided attention and now, the desire to be with a man grows ever so intense. Every woman desires to be admired, be pursued and explode their beauty. I admit that because it has been along time since I was pursued and admired (at least from what I am aware of); I can't help but feel really lonely and empty inside. It started this Christmas and New Year when I spent those eve working. I