Clairest Of Them.....All (thoughts of a lighthouse )

I have never felt in my 13 years of walk with God this much shaking. I can relate very well now with David when he said his feet had almost slipped. I felt like my life is ebbing away. Of course it's all but a lie and I'm slowly getting tired of life's worldly cares, the toxic work I have and a lot of relationship disappointments. Everyone who knows me knows that the more I'm challenged, the more I fight and stand my ground but all of a sudden I'm willing to take the back seat and just walk away from all of them. One part of me says that's is good because I need to choose which battle to fight. But then I know it's an excuse for me to really be sluggish and not act. I know deep inside that I need to go through a battle to fight and win it. Am not talking about physical fist fighting but spiritual. Maybe this is also a chance for me to reach a higher level of maturity for after all I need to persevere when troubles come so I can be mature (james 1:3). Or I ma