Clairest Of Them.....All (thoughts of a lighthouse )

I know I just started this morning ritual of jogging all the way to Rockwell on my rest days. Just when I am starting a new habit, a stalker has destroyed it. I am writing not to ruin his reputation, plus the fact that I don't think that guy has time reading blogs anyways. But I want to warn those who think they can get away with anything because they have the looks, sorry but I am a sucker for good character and gentleman ways. Anyways, this guy normally calls and text and he was my friend a few years back. I guess I'm just very nice to people and don't judge them but always give them a chance. So I didn't with hold my friendship with this guy because for all I know, I can draw him closer to God or be an angel or save his life (I know I sound like a savior, sorry, maybe I need to stop this Messiah complex). Anyways, it is 4AM , just in time for me to get up and jog by I was awakened by this friend who has been calling me but it just so happens that I am asleep that I o...

"He brought me out into a spacious place ; he rescued me because he delighted in me." Ps 18:19 @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ Since its Christmas season, not to say I gained a lot of pounds due to my negligence to exercise, I needed to take control again. Though there is a gym right where I am working, I preferred to stay out of my workplace on my rest days. I have tried brisk walking from my place in Boni Mandaluyong and a few laps to Mandaluyong Circle and at 4AM , I can still breathe the 70% pollution instead of the 30% fresh air. So on this next round, my destination is the Powerplant Rockwell. I wanted to experience the freshness of morning air while doing my regular meditation. Yes, it was an invigorating experience. Although I anticipated that I would need to pass by eye sore sights of the busy streets of Mandaluyong and JP Rizal, going to my destination is enough inspiration for me, plus the fact that I need to loose some pounds of course. So there I go, with my joggin...

One time while surfing the cable channels I heard a preacher said the reason we are looking for other things we think we lack such as: love, comfort, companionship, sex, money, joy is because we are really craving for God and needs God to reveal himself to us as our lover, our comfort, our companion, our protector, our provider. And instead of perverting those desires by looking at other places or people, we simply needs to nurture our relationship with God by asking him to be all of that to us. That strike a cord and a big note for me because sometimes I think those desires are natural but the 50% truth is that, God placed those desires so that he himself would be the one and can be the only one 100% capable to fill those desires. Also, the cause of low fidelity is that people tend to search for those things from their partner or other people which is really really wrong. Let me share to you a beautiful article me cell group leader/ mentor sent me: Dear friends, Here's an arti...

Amazing Grace Amazing grace! (how sweet the sound!) That sav'd a wretch like me! I once was lost, but now am found; Was blind, but now I see. 'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear, And grace my fears reliev'd; How precious did that grace appear, The hour I first believ'd! Thro' many dangers, toils, and snares, I have already come; 'Tis grace has brought me safe thus far, And grace will lead me home. The Lord has promis'd good to me, His word my hope secures; He will my shield and portion be, As long as life endures. Yes, when this flesh and heart shall fail, And mortal life shall cease; I shall possess, within the veil, A life of joy and peace. This earth shall soon dissolve like snow, The sun forbear to shine; But God, who call'd me here below, Will be for ever mine. John Newton @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ Yes! I'm out of the CSAT game and I'm now with the sales arm of my account! I am so relieved! Never really imagined how God has wor...

It has been a long time and may take another couple of months before I can add sumthin in my blog. Hopefully that would all change as Im being transferred to a sales account which is less tedious than the flight bookings that can really make the floor go crazy every shift. I am anticipating something good this year or at least before the year ends. I am also getting reunited with my galle friends which I have forgotten for 10 months to focus on my promotion. Nyways, whoever is erading this blog, hang in there because God has a plan far beyond what we can ever imagine and tests are meant not to test God but to test us on how we respond to situations. Well, Dra Joan got engaged as well as Adjeng. Ivy also got married. So that is 3 of my closest friend getting attached. That is the 6th event this year so far after Kirt getting married, Lilet getting married and Rose getting engaged. Ooops I forgot to mention Edel who got married last year as well. I am definitely next hehe. That guys mu...

What am I doing way past 2 in the morning??? I just can' wait but write what has transpired during my absence of blogging. It was a hectic season. Getting promoted is not all that, it means working 16 hours. At least for me it means contending with lack of sleep, challenging agents, unrealistic CSAT (customer satisfaction) surveys, stressed managers and supervisors, harassed agents, clueless newbies, uncalled for reactions of people who you don't know if they want to be your friends or who wants to get the best of you so because they are empty inside and they need some comfort. Well yeah, I did felt like a comfort woman (ha ha), in the sense that people usually find it cozy to talk to me. But ey! It took its toll on me. I hardly had time for godly fellowships, church friends and activities. Sometimes I felt like I have a different world because my job requires 200% of my attention (spiritually, physically and emotionally). People get to be touchy when they are not appreciated a...

"Haggard!!!” that's the common term used in the travel industry where I am now. I never thought that being in a travel account is three times harder than technical support. To think my previous account was the elite group in terms of technicality and highly skilled in terms of troubleshooting. Imagine the combination skills of dial-up, DSL, cable and web hosting rolled into one and yet Expedia.com is such a hard account. True it is more of customer service but the tools we use are highly technical (talk about worldspan), and the policies per airline, hotel and car vendor is way above my head. You need to be highly skilled or highly dedicated to master it. Never worked this hard my entire life although I've worked as QA supervisor but I am able to finish my task. This one keeps on piling and I can't afford to miss work. It's crunch time each time, every time. In terms of emails (200 plus a day), cases to be resolved, customer satisfaction ratings, co-workers, manag...

Walking with the clouds is the safest place on earth. When I say clouds, I'm referring to God's leading, his move, his direction. I'm excited to be now based at the Fort. I have been away from Fort for three years. I was assigned to do back up for galleria in the 9&11 team for two years and one year in the Saturday team. I am now coming back to my home after three years, not that galle wasn't my home for three years because I established and found my spiritually family there as well. I can sense a fresh start, like a newly cut grass that I can lie down. Like a break of a new day. I have a lot of new things this year. I'm moving to a new leadership group because my mentor is moving to Sidney and I'm brokenhearted but we need to follow the cloud, God's new direction. And I know that it's going to be a little awkward but exciting at first. I came from Edel and Richard's wedding and so far it was the most romantic wedding I have been through, actua...

I never get sick because Im physically strong, but with my job, working 12 hrs daily during graveyard shifts, my body gave in today. You know how it feels when you have a lot of people bossing you around and they don't care if you can still take it because i look fine on the outside but inside, it's like, "how do i fit that in on my drowning schedule and deliverables?". I guess in life, you got to be a fighter, a calm fighter. Im learning to trust God to carry me through a storm now. As I write now, I am not unravelling stuff but actually can see clearly why some things happen the way they are, let me put it in the words of T.D. Jakes: "There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone. When people can...

I watched Pride&Prejudice with Tin, Chito and Ana. Wow, I love the bed at fusion in GB3. Before watching the movie we were like princesses being served food in the bed table. The coolest thing ever! It was the most romantic film ever! I love how the man Mr. Darcy really acted like a man and how the woman Elizabeth never apologized for her strength and yet Mr. Darcy matched up with her. Wow, him saying these words, Mr. Darcy: "You must know... surely, you must know it was all for you. You are too generous to trifle with me. I believe you spoke with my aunt last night, and it has taught me to hope as I'd scarcely allowed myself before. If your feelings are still what they were last April, tell me so at once. My affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence me forever. If, however, your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love... I love... I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from ...

I celebrated my birthday at Mr Choi (again!), no choice because I came from ENLI. My special friends came as gathered by the best cell leader ever Rose Bernardo. There's Kirt and Him, Derek, Miguel (thanks Miguel! -who prayed for me over the phone, God really restored our friendship), Macky ( thank you for the bouquet of flowers and chocolates), Aileen, Chito (my PS brother), my siblin gs (Paul Amerigo, Paul Jehu, Liza and Marco). I've never eaten and received too much chocolate in my life on the day of my birthday. It was too much that I needed to give most of it away and I need to hit the gym, which I just did earlier to burn all the calories I have consumed. Ivy came all the way from her house by 9 pm, so is Dra. Joan. My dearest sister Carmina greeted me together with my ENLI friends. Suzanne my dear friend was there and Jua-anne. Some friends really didn't plan to come but out of my graciousness we followed them instead of them following us (but me writing this I supp...

Three years before my dad passed away, I experienced the most touching bond between a daughter and a father. I’m sure that he is unaware of it. It happens every 4 or 5 am in the morning. I would wake up because I would hear someone from downstairs praying, singing and crying like a child. I’m a very light sleeper so even if I am entitled to hoard some sleep I still end up waking up at the slightest sound or inconvenience. So at this time, I would slowly go down the stairs to get something to drink and I would see my dad with his bible on the table and him standing up with hands held high worshipping God. I am accustomed with this kind of environment. The presence of God sometimes would be so strong that whenever we would gather in the living room (my dad, mom, Paul Amerigo, Paul Jehu, Liza and Marco) we would sing for 3 hours. Marco would play the keyboards and I would lead the worship. We would dance, jump, clap, bow down--name it we have done it but we were having a ball. My mom woul...

Yesterday I asked you, how I can show love You said, "Look at me and I will show you how." So I walked all through the day with open eyes, Watching carefully how you will explain it In the morning I learned that you are the source of love, That no promise is greater than the one that Promised You restored the joy of my salvation and focus, You showered me with satisfaction in your presence My joy knows no bounds because you complete me What is man that you are mindful of him? The son of man that you care for him? I’m a princess in your royal household I reflect your beauty and love towards men I’m overwhelmed when you lavish me with love. I’m a living proof of your great goodness. I find my purpose and direction in you as I abide In the evening I continue to sing songs in my heart I will never tire to lift you up in my life I sing for joy with all my heart and soul I proclaim you are great, you are kind, you are good! I spend time with the people I love after that, Yet I see ...

Clenched Soul We have lost even th is twilight. No one saw us this evening hand in hand while the blue night dropped on the world. I have seen from my window the fiesta of sunset in the distant mountain tops. Sometimes a piece of sunburned like a coin in my hand. I remembered you with my soul clenched in that sadness of mine that you know. Where were you then? Who else was there? Saying what? Why will the whole of love come on me suddenly when I am sad and feel you are far away? The book fell that always closed at twilight and my blue sweater rolled like a hurt dog at my feet. Always, always you recede through the evenings toward the twilight erasing statues. ~Pablo Neruda

All of us are very tired that night because of the services we have attended. Me , Carmina, Grace and Ju-anne (not in the picture) bonded together after the services. It actually came as a surprise because Grace doesn't usually go out with us nor opens up with people. Ju-anne for some reason stayed and we really kicked it off. Carmina and I were planning on spending some time alone together after a long time of not being able to spend time. Mike joined and later Edsel dropped by as a surprise. The most common word during that night was Ju-anne's famous line "yeah yeah!" Thus, the yeah yeah group was formed. It was just plain dinner, ice cream and bonding which has a purpose because I got re-united with my long time friend Edsel. Everyone I guess was already in their homes during that night of December 25 except for us. I treasure that night because I know these are the people who will accept me for who I am and would really fight for me as I would be willing to al...

I know, I know, I have been neglecting my blog lately. Well, a lot of people are commenting that they love reading my blog but I don't really update it. Nyways, a lot of things has been going on all at the same time. I just got my promotion which is what I have been wanting for the last two years? And of course my hands are all so full with all trainings and really making friends here and there. This time not just testing the waters but really knowing how it feels to be in the travel business. Talk about testing the waters, yes, I have been testing a lot of waters lately, relationships, new people, and new places. And I tell you, a girl and guy friendship can really be complicated. I mean, I rejoice over the fact that I have a lot of guy friends because I feel that I'm normal. I mean you know how it feels to be raised in a coed school as opposed to an all-girls-school? I should say that as a person I'm pretty balanced because I do have friendship with guys that I hold dear...

Psalm 23 (For the Work Place) The Lord is my real boss, and I shall not want.He gives me peace, when chaos is all around me. He gently reminds me to pray and do all things without murmuring andcomplaining. He reminds me that he is my source and not my job. He restores my sanity everyday and guides my decisions that I mighthonor him in all that I do. Even though I face absurd amounts of e-mails, system crashes,unrealistic deadlines, budget cutbacks, gossiping co-workers,discriminating supervisors and an aging body that doesn't cooperateevery morning, I still will not stop--- for He is with me! His presence,His peace, and His power will see me through. He raises me up, even when they fail to promote me. He claims me as His own, even when the company threatens to let me go. His Faithfulness and love is better than any bonus check.His retirement plan beats every 401k there is! When it's all said and done, I'll be working for Him a whole lot longerand for that, I BLESS HIS NAME!...