Clairest Of Them.....All (thoughts of a lighthouse )

If love would find a way then you have in my dreams you were unassuming yet brilliant you were loving yet strong i hardly had time to talk since I was enjoying my time with you In the middle of all judging eyes, we were inseparable For awhile i didn't notice the rest of the world You had a grasp that tells me I'm safe your firm embrace protects me from any questioning eyes your eyes were kind and yet were on fire Awake from the marvelous sleep I know it is real if it were not so then how come I remember your timeless soul You were unconventional yet everyone knows you You're famously adored I didn't thought i'd fit in Your face looks familiar in many places at the right time you will be revealed to me I keep my eyes open watching where you will come from since love will find a way then anywhere, I know i'll meet you someday, very soon, could it be you now? i know if it is love, you will find your way to me

It must be for inspiration that you created the heavens, the earth, the sky, the sea I look at the stars and I am contented that there is peace, a calmness right into my soul It must be for inspiration that you created man, his heart, his soul, his spirit I look at how he goes about his life and there is wonder, how you have made us so wise It must be for inspiration that you have brought people together, they court, they join their lives, they grow old I look at how they have fulfilled their dreams in the eyes of their kids, it brings a special longing in my heart to have my dreams fulfilled too It must be for inspiration that I met you at this time, I was busy, was lonely, was caught up I look at how God has allowed circumstances to turn, after sometime there was spark that cannot be denied It must be for inspiration that i have met you and you are such a pleasant gift at the right time I look at my busy days and you give me delight each day, I am inspired, I'm happy, I am blesse...

I cannot tell how it all started I cannot tell why your smile brings me warmth I cannot be blind by your act of kindness I cannot believe there is attraction inside I cannot withhold giving out my love and affection when I know it is in my power to act I cannot control if I have this fondness growing deep inside I cannot go against my own standards I cannot speak lies when I know the truth inside I cannot be swayed by what I see on the outside I cannot allow my heart to just run wild I cannot understand why it just cannot be I cannot see it all but I have faith in love I cannot explain why I’m tongue tied at times I cannot deny we have so many things in common I cannot believe why I’m drawn to you I cannot assess what the future holds I cannot simply close all my doors at this time I cannot judge you based on the facts I cannot be obvious, I cannot give in I cannot also tell you I’m trusting Him to lead I cannot also go on and b...

I have mentioned earlier in one of my blog entries the 3 cores of a man’s heart which is: 1. a battle to fight, 2. an adventure to live and 3. A beauty to rescue and for women her cores are 1. To display beauty, 2. To be romanced and 3. To play an irreplaceable role in an adventure or to make an impact. I want to relate it in the light of my roots- my mom and my dad. My dad is a recognized playboy by his peers. At the age of 32 he was still very much single until he met my mom, a 27 year old heartthrob and old fashioned virgin which is a jewel during that time. I cannot describe it well without being straight forward and down right blunt so pardon me. Daddy must have slept with God knows how many women before he settled with my mom. In all of them, he never said he loved them but he was attracted to them and he liked each and every one of them. Men can really be adventurous that if not channeled properly like my dad used to live his bachelorhood then women can fall prey as one of those...

I surprised my long time friend Carmina last Sunday with bouquet of flowers and dinner. It is because her birthday always falls on church fasting week and I want to make it extra special after fast so she can remember it. No woman can resist a nice bouquet of flowers, with ribbons, you know the works. Just as I love flowers, I love packages and boxes of different colors. Just like life has its own way of giving me surprises for me to unveil. I am in the middle of something new. Though I miss my old team terribly, I really enjoyed them. I'm a firm believer of living the now believing it is God's Will for you so I recognize and love what I have at present. The worst is when I love and gets attached to it so much it is hard to move on. Yet I still embrace my new team now and love them. SO everyday it is a matter or enjoying and living each moment to the full and by the end of the day, all I have are good memories. Rose wrote me this and I want to be reminded of this all the time. ...

The Word says that if we confess our sins to each other and pray for each other then we would be healed. The power of confession not just brings to light what is hidden but it also brings into proper perspective what you think is the truth when the word of God is illuminated. It is like everything else grows dim when God's word says it all. Confession also helps you acknowledge that ALL YOU NEED IS GOD and you are at his mercy. Since we are prone to stray and we have valid longings, we tend to just put our guards down without contemplating on what could be. So we learn to accept things because in the world we live in, there are no standards. As long as it makes you happy then people would advise that do what your heart says and dictates. Well, well, well, when you love the people and loving the world, in a way you tend to smell like the world. When you love the sheep then you smell like them. But there is a fine line between God's standards and the world's. God's ways...

Lord, I hate this feeling of being caught up in a trap again. I want to be able to walk in the garden with you alone. Free like a deer and can stand so many heights. Here I am again, giving up my Isaac for the nth time. The heart is deceptive above all things and it has left me again wandering away from what you want me to do. Thank you for bringing me back on track. You are the only One that I need. You are the only one that really completes me. How could I have thought that it can be found through someone else without you. You are my friend, my lover, my father, my constant companion, my teacher, my guide, my protector, my shepherd, my provider. Apart from you, I am nothing. Please remove everything that may come between us. You are my very great reward!

You say it in a song...... Here are a some of the classic love songs I never tire of listening: Just being where your special someone is special enough.... No one can beat the bliss of being near the one you love.... or you see forever together with that special someone......... or you see that person with such beauty everytime regardless the time of day....

I joined our church annual 7 day fast which started Jan 5'07 and will end tomorrow. I'm on my 6th day and I really feel so useless and can't think straight I decided to eat and perhaps continue it again tomorrow. Fasting is like being in love. You can't eat because you are thinking of that one special person. Same as our love for God, you can't help but set aside that special time of fasting to just think about him. I see this in most engaged couples. They don't want to be separated even for just a second. Strange is that God has given me so much grace that I was able to come to work the past 5 days doing a liquid fast. I was even doing overtime at work and has accomplished more than when I was eating normally. But looks like it took it's toll because my patience is kindda not at it's highest level. The good side is that my impatience to get things done is making me productive. But I feel like I am not able to tolerate things where I used to have hig...

I'm attempting to write a long poem on waiting and looks like I am stomped since I stopped writing poems for a long time. I have become so used to business writing that I have lost touch of my artistic writing. Good thing I can still write my thoughts. Anyways, I want to write my thoughts on waiting. Waiting is like sitting during the fourth watch of the night for the sun to rise. Now, that is how sure the promises of God are- you know for sure that the sun will rise the next day. But how about waiting for the rain to fall after a season of drought? How about waiting for the value of your stocks to go up? Now, I get you, it gets little bit tricky and unsure. “Let not your longing slay your appetite for living” – Jim Elliot to Elizabeth Elliot Have you ever prayed for something for so long and you are still waiting for the answer because you believe it will come to pass and that you don't want to compromise your standards because you know that what you wished and believed w...

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket--safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. . . The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers of love is Hell." --The Four Loves (C.S. Lewis)

reposting from last year...... CAPTIVATING is a book by John and Stasi Eldredge. John Eldredge wrote a book for men entitled "Wild at Heart" and the book is so powerful, so much that it is through this book that I learned how to be a woman. I'm hooked up with the woman's counterpart of the book which is equally engrossing and powerful and it is this book called Captivating. One time as I share my own story about how I despised Beauty in the past (I used to feel and think that I am ugly and I don’t want to smile otherwise I am attracting men, later I discovered that God loves and enjoys me the way I am, I am now more comfortable in being the woman God created me to be, I am holy and my beauty comes from my continuous abiding in him, I love being a woman now) and how God redeemed me on my concept of beauty someone suggested that I read this book Captivating because my story and my struggles are the very subject tackled in the book. I was intrigued at first to find out...

It has been 3 years since I had a relationship and I am not ashamed to write my struggles as a single woman because I know I am hidden in God and I am not doing anything to be ashamed of in the first place. Moreover, my own struggles serve as a lesson, an inspiration to many in how they should live their lives in the hopes of waiting for the right man. God must have enjoyed me so much that for three years now, I never had any relationships, flings although I must admit I was attracted to a lot of good men. It was around 12 months or a year to be exact since God has shut down my heart so I can have undivided attention and now, the desire to be with a man grows ever so intense. Every woman desires to be admired, be pursued and explode their beauty. I admit that because it has been along time since I was pursued and admired (at least from what I am aware of); I can't help but feel really lonely and empty inside. It started this Christmas and New Year when I spent those eve working. I ...